March 27th
Dear Journal,
Life is finally settling down and I think that I may have finally gotten my children convinced that there is a wrath from their Mother that they do not want to raise. Vashlan is acting as humble as I have ever seen him – I think I shamed him enough to where he will be a bit more discrete in his new found pleasures of the flesh. The two little boys, well, Karing is always the one that is quiet and I think that he is going to be fine, however, I will have to keep a closer eye on Volardan because he, of all my children, seems to have the more devious mind set of any of them.
Oh, poor Kal, I know that he is having a terrible time with the way things are going between he and Kae. I have tried to explain to him that sometimes it is much easier for women to talk together about problems than it is for them to speak with their companions or mates. I tried to explain to him when he was in Stormwind last week that there was no reason for him to be upset with Kaelendra because she came to me with her problems concerning him. She wasn’t being a tattle-tale, she was trying to figure out what it is that she is supposed to do to try to convince him that he can be wrong sometimes with some of his actions.
Oh, that prideful Sindorei blood will rise in Kal now and again – this is one time that I have to agree with Kae, he does need to be more careful with the things that he becomes involved in. Plus, Kae has never had a family, she didn’t have the bonus of having a close-knit family such as we have. Her life has always been a communal kind of thing, foster parents as is our custom with future Sentinels as well as being shuttled from family to family to avoid that weak spot of having a family to tug at one’s heart-strings.
Our family is the first family that she has ever been heavily involved in. Poor thing is trying so hard to please Kaldor and trying to put aside her feelings that she still has for the Sentinels – once a Sentinel, always a Sentinel – this I know from my own experience. I’ve learned how to hide that part of my personality rather well and put my family first these days. There are times that I truly long to be back and a part of that organization because it was a huge part of my growing up and has been a mainstay in my life, almost as much as my Sindorei. Poor child is having to go through a lot of changes in her life and I hope that Kal is reasonable enough that he will see that she is struggling with fitting into the family as well as into her new lifestyle with him. No, they haven’t declared themselves as mates and they haven’t taken their vows yet, however, I do see that coming in the near future. Her love for him is almost as great as my love is for my beloved and I do hope that he is intelligent enough to recognize it.
There are times that I have to remind myself that our children will never learn from our experiences before them, they have to experience everything for themselves, or so it seems. All you can do as a parent is to advise them of things and try to make them aware, however, they have to learn it the hard way for themselves in certain circumstances for them to realize that their parents are not doddering old fools. I was the same way with my parents.
I do see a lot of my Sindorei in our two sons and I also see how some of his ideals and things have also been absorbed by my two youngest boys. You can say what you will, blood will tell as well as the environment that the children were raised in.
Oh, I am being so philosophical this morning that it’s making my head hurt. I was just sitting here at my desk and overhearing some of the conversations from the warehouse below. We definitely have a diverse group of people working for us here in Stormwind, however, their loyalty to the Crown and to our company is almost shocking. Seems they all weigh their actions to cover both bases.
I did send Magdamia off to Pandaria and she should be returning from there in the next few days. I am anxious to hear her report about whether she thinks it would be feasible for us to put another warehouse in Halfhill or possibly the Jade Forest for our business. It would definitely cut down on the travel time and distribution of the goods if we had a place up there to use as well as Shattrath and Stormwind. Of course, I’ll have to discuss this with my Sindorei because it will be part of his business plans as well as my own. I suppose we ought to look into hiring more people and gather more contracts up there as well as in Outland.
Speaking of my beloved, I wonder how his time is being spent in Silvermoon? I know that we both have been extremely busy trying to get things in order with the business, however, I know that he had the added burden of dealing with his spoiled baby sister. Poor man was very distraught with her actions when we last discussed them in Nagrand. If there was something that I could do to make him feel better about things I would, however, it is going to be something that I can only advise him on because, it is his sister and my sister-in-law. I do hope that he listened to my advice.
I will be happy when we have things settled enough in Shattrath to where we can spend more time together. I don’t care what other women may say, I miss my mate and I miss his physical presence in my life more than I can decently mention. Oh, to feel his arms around me and those caresses that only he can give me or part of the reasons that I love him so much. We’ve been together for many years and we have been through so many trials and tribulations, however, the passion has never dimmed or died in our private lives.
Amynlarae Shadowmoon
