October 11th
Dear Journal,
Ah yes, it’s been quite a while since I’ve last written, however, these are busy times and there are many things to occupy my time. The one thing that seems to occupy my time more often than not is the pack. It keeps growing and sometimes I wonder what I am doing with this many in my group. Of course, I do depend on Felley quite a bit to help me out sometimes, however, she has her hands full as well because she has decided to go out adventuring on her own a bit more these days.
There are times that I would be more than willing to put all of this aside and go off adventuring with her. We’ve been together for quite a while and I will admit that I wouldn’t change a single thing about our time together with the exception of the fact that I would like to make our relationship a bit more formal, however, I don’t think that she would go along with that right now.
Felley knows that I still think about my wife and children that I lost in Gilneas, however, after the last year or so, I’ve actually stopped looking for them. It was extremely difficult for me to give up on my old life, however, the logic of the situation finally registered fully on my mind. There isn’t a chance that my family survived the fall of our homeland and it’s rather doubtful that they survived the Curse even if it did befall them. Not everyone can adapt to that big change in their lives with their sanity intact. I know this from my experience with some of the people that I have gotten to know since my arrival in Darnassus.
We did try to make the transition over to Stormwind for a short time, however, it was one of those things that just wasn’t meant to be due to the fact that some of the members of the pack couldn’t’ adapt to the city life without causing undo problems. Rather than break the pack up and leave some of the youngsters behind, Felley and I, decided to bring the group back to Darnassus and to Dark Shore. At least here people can kind of expect some of the social accidents that will happen with a young wolf, be they female or male – we all have our problems. Sometimes the younger males will want to try to challenge my patience with the pack, however, that is usually short-lived and they have the choice of staying with the pack under my leadership and they can move on to another pack and try their luck there. I know that Felley and I coddle some of our youngsters, however, they are the only children that we will ever have.
I do know that I haven’t seen or heard of anyone of our kind having children of our own since the Curse. Maybe that ability to propagate has been taken away from us along with the Curse, no one really knows and it isn’t something that we discuss with one another. There are a few people here from Gilneas that were not affected by the Curse but they are indeed a rarity and I will admit that there are times that I am somewhat envious of them having new families here in this land. If only we hadn’t allowed ourselves to be cut off from the rest of society for so long that we lost touch with the reality of the situation of the lands and factions.
Oh well, all of that is hindsight and you know what they say about that. I will have to admit that I have learned an awful lot from my mate in the last year. I can read and cipher as well as she can even though I don’t have the formal education that her family afforded her before the changes happened.
From all of the rumors that seem to be floating around Darnassus, it does appear as though we’re in for some new and exciting changes as well as an opportunity to engage in some adventures with some of the old foes. It may be rumor, however, not one to hide from adversity, I think that I will have my little pack ready for whatever may be looming on the horizon.
I hope that Felley will make her way back home before too much longer, I know that I miss her more than anyone could even fathom. I guess I have let go of my past and I am looking forward to embracing the future if it’s not too late. Who knows, she may have found another in her adventures to some of these distant places although I will have to admit that her letters are as warm as ever, they still aren’t quite the same as having her here with me.
Oak
